īŧ breath becomes a hushed huff of laughter, soft and easy beneath the tentative questing of sasuke's hand. īŧ
Well, you've been through the wringer. īŧ the touch is returned very carefully, a brush against the outside of sasuke's forearm. tracing a scar. īŧ That can affect how your body and mind both processes attraction, sexual impulse, romantic inclinations, the whole nine yards. Things like PTSD — you ever heard that term? Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder? — can grind your libido down to a fucking glass powder if you aren't careful. Not everyone experiences desire to start with — sexual attraction, orientation and drive are pretty broad spectrums — but psychological safety can be a big part of it too.
īŧ his thumb tucks around to the inside of sasuke's arm, stroking into the hollow of his elbow. īŧ
I don't know exactly how long it took me to kinda... 'thaw out', I guess, but it was a long fucking time. Way after I left Chinoon — ah, that world I mentioned. The thought of touching other people, letting them touch me — whew. No fucking thanks, couldn't do it. I really had to work through my shit first. Believe me when I say it's still a work in progress. I have good days and bad days.
īŧ a pause. then, to clarify — īŧ
So I guess if you wanted assurance that it gets better, or that shit goes away with time — it doesn't. But it does get easier to manage, and the more you understand about trauma and your own reactions, the easier it is. So that when something sets you off, or wears on you, or hurts... you know why. You can piece it apart, and put yourself back together after.
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Date: 2024-01-17 11:59 pm (UTC)Well, you've been through the wringer. īŧ the touch is returned very carefully, a brush against the outside of sasuke's forearm. tracing a scar. īŧ That can affect how your body and mind both processes attraction, sexual impulse, romantic inclinations, the whole nine yards. Things like PTSD — you ever heard that term? Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder? — can grind your libido down to a fucking glass powder if you aren't careful. Not everyone experiences desire to start with — sexual attraction, orientation and drive are pretty broad spectrums — but psychological safety can be a big part of it too.
īŧ his thumb tucks around to the inside of sasuke's arm, stroking into the hollow of his elbow. īŧ
I don't know exactly how long it took me to kinda... 'thaw out', I guess, but it was a long fucking time. Way after I left Chinoon — ah, that world I mentioned. The thought of touching other people, letting them touch me — whew. No fucking thanks, couldn't do it. I really had to work through my shit first. Believe me when I say it's still a work in progress. I have good days and bad days.
īŧ a pause. then, to clarify — īŧ
So I guess if you wanted assurance that it gets better, or that shit goes away with time — it doesn't. But it does get easier to manage, and the more you understand about trauma and your own reactions, the easier it is. So that when something sets you off, or wears on you, or hurts... you know why. You can piece it apart, and put yourself back together after.