[He shifts to lay on his side, also accommodating the position with their bodies tangled together on the bed, only a hitch of breath signaling the shift of that blunt plug still inside of him.]
I've experienced something similar to that â the drop â but not in the same context. There's often a low I feel after battle. Once all the adrenaline has faded, and... regardless of the outcome, whether I've won or lost, I find myself withdrawing. I don't like being around other people.
[So many battles he's picked himself up from and tended to his body alone, unless he needed outside aid that he couldn't manage on his own. There are no good memories in that direction of thought, so he focuses his eyes on Cy's face instead, close to him, hand wandering the smooth skin of a warm back.]
I've considered it. For you, I imagine that I would endure anything. [A simple fact he feels no shame admitting.] But if it's your responsibility to be in control, then I should also be aware of how much I can take before I agree to something, because I think it's natural for my mind to go to that place where it's low. [Speaking his thoughts, working it from his mind with words â it is easier with Cy than he's ever experienced with another person.] I don't know what those boundaries are yet, but I'm not worried.
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Date: 2024-02-28 02:40 am (UTC)I've experienced something similar to that â the drop â but not in the same context. There's often a low I feel after battle. Once all the adrenaline has faded, and... regardless of the outcome, whether I've won or lost, I find myself withdrawing. I don't like being around other people.
[So many battles he's picked himself up from and tended to his body alone, unless he needed outside aid that he couldn't manage on his own. There are no good memories in that direction of thought, so he focuses his eyes on Cy's face instead, close to him, hand wandering the smooth skin of a warm back.]
I've considered it. For you, I imagine that I would endure anything. [A simple fact he feels no shame admitting.] But if it's your responsibility to be in control, then I should also be aware of how much I can take before I agree to something, because I think it's natural for my mind to go to that place where it's low. [Speaking his thoughts, working it from his mind with words â it is easier with Cy than he's ever experienced with another person.] I don't know what those boundaries are yet, but I'm not worried.