[The ridiculous words, at first, coax a dry snort of laughter â one small sign he's returning to normal. Carried to the bed, he doesn't hesitate to entangle their legs once Cy has cocooned them into the plush fabric of the blanket. He can feel where blood and spend and lubricant has dried on Cy's body, but instead of discomfort it only heightens how close he feels to the man, as if establishing some tangible evidence of their connection no matter how temporary.]
Yes. I've said it before, but â I feel safer here with you than I have since I was a child. [In that tired state, he tries to be clear about his feelings, even if it rips him down to the wick of vulnerability in the process. With Cy, he knows at least the sentiment will be protected.] Yet it's strange. I know that I've always been capable of feeling deeply, but it's almost... more intense now. I don't know if it's because I've stopped fighting against it, as if by trying to relax I've lost some control over those emotions. I don't usually have such strong reactions. Not in front of other people.
[Speaking of what he feels seems to give it power; he shivers, hiking a leg up over both of Cy's in their embrace.]
Perhaps it's also because I'm used to communicating through battle alone.
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Date: 2024-03-08 06:26 pm (UTC)Yes. I've said it before, but â I feel safer here with you than I have since I was a child. [In that tired state, he tries to be clear about his feelings, even if it rips him down to the wick of vulnerability in the process. With Cy, he knows at least the sentiment will be protected.] Yet it's strange. I know that I've always been capable of feeling deeply, but it's almost... more intense now. I don't know if it's because I've stopped fighting against it, as if by trying to relax I've lost some control over those emotions. I don't usually have such strong reactions. Not in front of other people.
[Speaking of what he feels seems to give it power; he shivers, hiking a leg up over both of Cy's in their embrace.]
Perhaps it's also because I'm used to communicating through battle alone.