[He hates putting it to words, because it somehow makes the fear more real, a monument of weakness in his mind. But for Cy, he tries.]
I was alone. Your room was sealed off, but you weren't... I couldn't even find your statue. [Unaware whether Cy has heard this or not—] You can find the statues of those who have vanished, sometimes, in the food hall. After midnight.
[Now that he's begun speaking, the wound bleeds fresh — a quick and rapid flow of words that trip over one another, ragged, breathless.]
You were completely gone. I had nothing left of you. [He feels the hot burn of tears escape, a ticklish frustration he tries to wipe away with his right hand.] I didn't know what to do. It was like — when Naruto was gone from that other dimension, but worse. I thought I would never see you again.
[At least he and Naruto share the commonality of a dimension. But if Cy slips away from him — how could Sasuke ever get him back?]
If you decided to be away from me, I could stand that. It would be a choice. [It would destroy him in another way, but he would survive heartbreak of that kind.] At least you would still exist here. But what if there isn't a choice? It's not fair.
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[He hates putting it to words, because it somehow makes the fear more real, a monument of weakness in his mind. But for Cy, he tries.]
I was alone. Your room was sealed off, but you weren't... I couldn't even find your statue. [Unaware whether Cy has heard this or not—] You can find the statues of those who have vanished, sometimes, in the food hall. After midnight.
[Now that he's begun speaking, the wound bleeds fresh — a quick and rapid flow of words that trip over one another, ragged, breathless.]
You were completely gone. I had nothing left of you. [He feels the hot burn of tears escape, a ticklish frustration he tries to wipe away with his right hand.] I didn't know what to do. It was like — when Naruto was gone from that other dimension, but worse. I thought I would never see you again.
[At least he and Naruto share the commonality of a dimension. But if Cy slips away from him — how could Sasuke ever get him back?]
If you decided to be away from me, I could stand that. It would be a choice. [It would destroy him in another way, but he would survive heartbreak of that kind.] At least you would still exist here. But what if there isn't a choice? It's not fair.