[Built out of a ragged whine more than any true complaint, demonstrated by how quickly he falls to Cy's instruction. In an airless voice, he counts — ten, nine... Those warm hands are steadying, preventing him from dragging himself up the bed with the physical urgency of that pain, to a point where he has no other choice but to simply exist in it. Let it wash over him, the pull down into that mindless subspace almost overwhelming except for the fact that he wants to be present with Cy right now as they try this new experience together.
The count helps. The immensity of the pain fades, a little, until it becomes bearable enough that he can lie there and breathe. He's less aware of himself for all the space it takes up in his mind — deep breaths exhaled in gasps against the sheet, corners of eyes damp with tears.]
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[Built out of a ragged whine more than any true complaint, demonstrated by how quickly he falls to Cy's instruction. In an airless voice, he counts — ten, nine... Those warm hands are steadying, preventing him from dragging himself up the bed with the physical urgency of that pain, to a point where he has no other choice but to simply exist in it. Let it wash over him, the pull down into that mindless subspace almost overwhelming except for the fact that he wants to be present with Cy right now as they try this new experience together.
The count helps. The immensity of the pain fades, a little, until it becomes bearable enough that he can lie there and breathe. He's less aware of himself for all the space it takes up in his mind — deep breaths exhaled in gasps against the sheet, corners of eyes damp with tears.]