[The enormity of what Cy does for him through the gentle, exacting process of aftercare is not new — they have done this before. Yet in light of all of their experiences together up to this moment, and after the intensity of their first fully fledged scene, Sasuke finds himself so deeply touched that he cannot speak through the careful ministrations, the kisses and touches laid on his skin as the toy is worked free and discarded, as he's set on the mat and Cy cradles him close, as the water rains over them. He blinks away tears not from any kind of sorrow but rather just an expression of — feeling. All that has been pent up in him, denied, pushed down and ruthlessly ignored, the good and the bad. He feels closer to himself, then, and closer to Cy than he has felt to anyone in his life.
It is as he said earlier. Cy is the other half of his soul — whether it has any true spiritual meaning or not, it is what Sasuke believes. And that is all that matters.
A soft sigh escapes him, lost to the sound of water as Cy drapes over top of him, hands warm where they cup at full flesh, breasts still tender and sensitive from prior abuse. The attention paid to his hair in combination with the heat has made him drowsy, hand curled over Cy's ankles and head turned to nudge at Cy's cheek. The spoken words summon another wave of emotionality, but — he doesn't brace against it. He doesn't fight. He lets it pass through, no longer unwelcome.]
I would never give it up. Meeting you. [The nudge becomes a nuzzle against Cy's cheek, like a large cat — a showing of affection they've both exhibited in this exact way countless times by now.] It's effortless, to be with you. I didn't know that it could feel like that.
[Another quiet exhale, body easing to a boneless state in the cradle of Cy's legs.]
How you are when you're like that... I know it comes with difficulty for you. But, the fact that you trust me enough to show it to me, I don't take that for granted. [Little steps guided by Cy's communication efforts, allowing him to follow.] And you're — so attractive. [Thankfully, if he's blushing, Cy won't be able to see it well from that angle.] Impossibly attractive. Everything you do to me, but especially everything you say.
[Their first experience is never far from his mind, after all.]
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It is as he said earlier. Cy is the other half of his soul — whether it has any true spiritual meaning or not, it is what Sasuke believes. And that is all that matters.
A soft sigh escapes him, lost to the sound of water as Cy drapes over top of him, hands warm where they cup at full flesh, breasts still tender and sensitive from prior abuse. The attention paid to his hair in combination with the heat has made him drowsy, hand curled over Cy's ankles and head turned to nudge at Cy's cheek. The spoken words summon another wave of emotionality, but — he doesn't brace against it. He doesn't fight. He lets it pass through, no longer unwelcome.]
I would never give it up. Meeting you. [The nudge becomes a nuzzle against Cy's cheek, like a large cat — a showing of affection they've both exhibited in this exact way countless times by now.] It's effortless, to be with you. I didn't know that it could feel like that.
[Another quiet exhale, body easing to a boneless state in the cradle of Cy's legs.]
How you are when you're like that... I know it comes with difficulty for you. But, the fact that you trust me enough to show it to me, I don't take that for granted. [Little steps guided by Cy's communication efforts, allowing him to follow.] And you're — so attractive. [Thankfully, if he's blushing, Cy won't be able to see it well from that angle.] Impossibly attractive. Everything you do to me, but especially everything you say.
[Their first experience is never far from his mind, after all.]