It's okay. It helps to say it. I've never told anyone else.
[He's done things. For so long, he's done so much he regrets — and so many people in the world are aware of those actions. But he's never spoken them aloud, to someone else, willingly. And he does not trust another person as much as he trusts Cy to hear it.]
The first time, no. I won. But I couldn't do it.
So I tried again later — when I was older and more powerful. And I lost. I think I would have done it then, if I'd succeeded.
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[He's done things. For so long, he's done so much he regrets — and so many people in the world are aware of those actions. But he's never spoken them aloud, to someone else, willingly. And he does not trust another person as much as he trusts Cy to hear it.]
The first time, no. I won. But I couldn't do it.
So I tried again later — when I was older and more powerful. And I lost. I think I would have done it then, if I'd succeeded.