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[chokuto]

[He is aware of all the places Cy touches him now, the ghost of every kiss lingering on his body like static electricity. The teeth are a sharper impression, like a shock, but the way Cy fondles his breast is the most excruciating of all, relief and torment mingled in the heavy soreness kneaded by one hand, skin slick with the milk produced from that pressure, so much that it feels a little obscene.

Five times. Skillfully in that way Cy knows so well, he's given a task, a challenge — a method he can use to prove the depth of his devotion.]

Y—Yes. [He doesn't try to withhold himself now, breathing hard, knowing Cy will hear and feel him struggle.] I will.

[So he does, or he tries to the best of his physical ability, clenching down hard — a squeeze that constricts pressure around Cy's dick, around Cy's knuckles, and around the plug that is most unyielding of all, buried in his ass where Cy's come still sits inside of him. He sobs with an open mouth. One. There's a release, muscles trembling, and then another clench. Two. Until there are tears in his eyes at the end of the third, eyelashes wet and stuck together.]

[hallowing]

There you go, shh, shh.

（ cy laps at the spill of milk across his hand, and then shifts so he's sitting a little more upright as sasuke grinds down against him, making it easier for him to set that hand against the back of sasuke's neck and pull him in to kiss his forehead. he's tense with his own denial, body taut as a drumline — but he can still manage gentleness where it counts. ）

You're being so brave for me, taking all of this. I know it hurts. You wear pain so well for me, my beautiful, perfect whore. It feels s—so fucking good.

（ there's a nuzzle at his temple, letting sasuke rest against him. his hand slips back between them, petting at his breasts, his belly. lower, until he can press against the mons pubis and further compound the pressure of being fucked, being filled. ）

Two more, and then you can rest. I'm going to put you down on the bed and use your cunt until I come, all you'll have to do is lay there and take it. And if you're really a good slut for me, I'll whip your breasts until you're wearing bruises for a week.

[chokuto]

[It is Cy's words that help him through the difficulty, layered in the gentle love of a kiss to the forehead, of the petting hands on his tits, belly, between his legs. There's a greater squeeze from the pressure of Cy's palm where it slips up against the pubic mound, and despite the greater constriction, it helps to coax him through those final two. It guides him in the tight, full-body clench even when he feels resistance, fatigue setting into the shiver of overtaxed muscles.

And the dull, throbbing, pulsing pain — this washes white through his head. He's nothing but a whore possessed by this man. He'll wear the bruises as evidence of that fact, and maybe he'll keep the breasts of this body for that week, and press on those sore places in the shower, and Cy can fuck him against the tile after. Does he have to change back right away? What if he stayed, and let Cy get him pregnant?

The final squeeze of those inner walls makes Sasuke cry out, soft and weak, dropping his head into the protective cradle of Cy's shoulder. An orgasm chases it — but it doesn't feel singular. It is a long, drawn-out, continuous pulse of pleasure that leaves him so wet on Cy's dick it feels like he could fit another finger inside of him and take everything deeper, to the seat of his womb where he recalls that dull ache. In a different position than this, perhaps —]

Cy... Cy, please, I want you. Come inside of me. Put it in me. [His voice is ragged, gasping, recognizable as still him despite its higher feminine tone.] Please fuck my cunt.

cw: gender fuckery ig

[hallowing]

( he has learned not to argue with the whims of the broader universe. are we all not motes of dust subject to karma? — or something equally ridiculous, equally poetic.

because the truth is, he'd intended to pin sasuke down and fuck him hard, until the mattress was driven against the wall, until he was sobbing and spent beneath him. he'd intended to pin his hand and whisper filth into his ear and see how many times he could wring a trembling orgasm from him, if there's some upper limit beholden to the suit.

instead, sasuke says two words that throws the best laid plans of mice and gods directly out the window. my cunt. and, haha, whoops, wouldn't you know it — the chain reaction that follows can only end one way.

cy does grab him and haul him in bodily for a kiss, but in the next moment he's lost the entire plot and has instead just buried himself as deeply into his body as possible and come so hard it winds him, ghost lights sparking behind his eyes as they flicker closed.

it takes him precious time to unfuck his brain from the overload, and then it's just to — laugh. )

Fuck, nobody can fuck with my restraint the way you can. ( playfully, gently, with a warm squeeze of one overfull breast — ) Good girl.

cw: gender fuckery cont.

[chokuto]

[Sasuke — even wrung out, panting, half-delirious with the force of his orgasm and the pleasure of Cy coming inside of him that he can feel in those delicious little pulses, in the softening of flesh — manages a smirk at Cy's laughter, at those words. He wonders whether it should bother him, what he's called then, but it doesn't. The high of that victory in drawing Cy to the limit of his self-control is equal only to the adrenaline he's experienced on battlefields over an opponent.

Good girl. For Cy, he would be anything. And it feels... taboo, almost, in a way he can't quite define in the moment. Fantasy as much as reality reflected in this altered form. It doesn't feel denigrating to be called a girl by Cy, because he knows it isn't made as a sincere insult. The hand squeezing his breast, still sore enough to make him squirm on Cy's soft cock, further highlights the difference — that right now he is a woman. And Cy enjoys him this way too.]

I didn't think it would be so easy. Are you losing your touch?

[He sits upright on the man's lap, primly, like it's a throne. It's playful; he suspects some part of their fervor now is from the influence of the diamond suit, but he doesn't care.]

[hallowing]

（ his breathing still isn't entirely regulated, but he contents himself with panting slightly, lifting a hand to card through sasuke's longer hair. brushing bangs back from his face, exposing him, seeing him. ）

You're beautiful, male or female. But I don't care about that, what you look like physically. I care about the kindness, the compassion, the fire in you that has never gone out. You rule me, t'che verai. I'm your slave. If I can live on my knees to bring you pleasure, that's enough for me.

（ he catches sasuke's hand, and brings it back up to the collar, encouraging him to hook a finger through the d-ring. ）

You could get me off with a word. A look. My body craves you in your absence, and needs you when you're near. Of course it's easy — love's made it easy.

[chokuto]

[The words are powerful. Obediently his hand curls, looping his finger into that ring and then curling his grip tightly, holding by that tether. He's silent for a long moment — but he knows Cy isn't waiting for a quick response, and the pause isn't out of any denial of those words. It is to let them sink in, to be permanently laid into memory.]

I won't say that it doesn't still frighten me at times — this feeling. Its depth and intensity. But I realized that fear isn't because of how I feel for you, it comes from the thought of losing it. Losing you.

[He can admit this aloud, now, when previously even visiting the subject was enough to grip him with frantic terror.]

You make my life feel like it matters. That I survived all of this for a reason. So, thank you. I won't forsake what you've given me with that love.

[A tug at the collar pulls Cy in closer, claiming a kiss from his mouth.]

[hallowing]

I know you won't.

（ he leans into that kiss, though he keeps it gentle and chaste. mostly so he can pull back, butt his head against sasuke's and say, playfully: ）

Do I still get to whip your perfect tits? Christ Aloud, look how gorgeous they are.

（ he eases his hand from between sasuke's legs, and lifts both — one obscenely slick — to cup the bottoms of his breasts, lifting them up in wonder, thumbs wiping away streaks where milk has leaked. he stoops to kiss both in turn, with an exaggerated little muah! of sound. ）

We are into some serious fantasy fulfilment territory here, you know. Was this suit thing your birthday gift or mine?

[chokuto]

[He shivers at the obscenity of what Cy had promised to do, unable to keep from pressing himself forward into those hands, breasts still sore and seeking relief from the ache of their fullness.]

I suspect it was designed with this in mind, but maybe not for a specific fantasy. [Sasuke tilts his head thoughtfully.] I haven't used this form with anyone else. I know we didn't discuss that, but... I'm not sure I would be comfortable.

[The circumstances would have to be special with trust at the forefront, and the knowledge that he wouldn't be treated differently because of the way he looked. And Cy has laid that foundation first.]

Are my... bodily fluids [sorry he cannot say Milk,] — uh, did they really affect you?

[hallowing]

( it's okay cy will desensitize you to that too. )

Thy heavenly fonts of ambrosia most lactescent, yea verily, have caused a most peculiar stir.

( stop him. please.

cy kneads at one breast, lapping at the fluid as it beads at one reddened nipple, and then lifts his hips upwards just a little so sasuke can feel the way his cock renews its rigidity within him. )

As you can see, we're well-positioned not to leave the room for a week. Whether or not you'll be able to walk at the end... eh, that one's up in the air.

( that attention to one breast turns into an affectionate press of teeth, catching at the nipple. )

I'm pissed I haven't gotten around to that fucking machine, because I would love to put you in one like this, every hole plugged, tits bound with weights that makes your cunt ache, leaking milk all over the floor. Fuck. I wouldn't last long enough to come in one of your slutty, perfect holes.

[chokuto]

[By now he's accustomed to Cy's absurd use of humor, so he feels nothing more than an urge to slap his hand over the man's mouth at those highly stupid words — but the lave of a tongue across one sore, leaking nipple is enough to hijack his immediate attention. His cunt clenches over that thickening length, and he rolls his hips just to feel the slick union of their bodies, Cy's cock buried deep.]

Mm. Would you have me knocked up properly by the end of the week?

[Given current circumstances, yes, this is a fixation. The shudder that Cy's teeth on his nipple inspires is visceral.]

As my birthday present, you can make me a machine like that. And I'll endure everything you do to me.

[hallowing]

Oh, sweetheart, you know you don't have to ask for me to do my level best to fuck a child into you.

（ it wouldn't take much to get him off again — the enormity of the suit's effects on him like a veil over all his senses. everything's a mess of bodily fluids and cy, who is normally fastidious about clean-up, finds he doesn't give a damn. instead, he presses a kiss between his breasts. ）

The machine'll have to be an IOU. I don't think I'm going to want to stop fucking you long enough today to put my engineering hat on. As much as I want to torture you out of your mind with pleasure.

（ one hand slips upwards, briefly closes over the column of his throat, squeezes just barely and then turns into a caress that brushes his hair back from his face. ）

Unless you want to do a trial run in genjutsu?

（ it's said speculatively, considering the avenues in play. ）

We could go a little harder there, too — I could be rougher if you wanted it.

[chokuto]

[If asked how he would like to spend today, he cannot think of a better answer than this — a tangle of limbs with Cy in bed, hours at their disposal in pursuit of each other's pleasure. He leans, chasing Cy's mouth for a kiss and tasting the warm, milky flavor of himself.

That question earns a considering tilt of his head.]

We could, but I'll have to borrow some of that information from your mind. I don't know what a machine like that is supposed to look like.

[Well, it wouldn't be the first time Sasuke's genjutsu has interwoven itself with Cy's creativity, so engineering wouldn't be much of a reach. By their powers combined...]

It could be — a first draft. So you know what you want to construct in reality. [The suggestion of roughness, with Cy's hand grazing his throat, makes him shift in his seat on Cy's lap.] ... How do you want me to appear? Physically, I mean.

[hallowing]

（ the question softens his expression, and cy leans into a kiss, turning it into a settled press of their foreheads. ）

Hey, it's your birthday. However you want to look is going to grab me by the throat, just because it's you.

（ the tits are a novelty, and there's no denying he enjoys sasuke's female form, but he'd never want him to feel like he's formed a preference one way or another. he just wants — him. whatever that looks like. ）

I want you to be comfortable above everything else.

[chokuto]

I'll be comfortable with you.

[Silly man. This, at least, Sasuke can be certain of now — there's little Cy could do to make him feel insecure, even when they are exploring new experiences together like this. What issues arise are worked through together.]

We could continue the previous scene we were doing. Would you be interested in something like that?

[He does remember the mental preparation required for Cy, so he wants to be sensitive of that. But it did have a throughline to the breeding element.]

[hallowing]

（ activate pupil dilation... ）

The POW scene?

（ just to clarify. ）

[chokuto]

Yes. Last time, though... you needed to take a break. So we don't have to do it now if it would be too much.

[Just as Cy looks out for his comfort, Sasuke wants to do the same.]

[hallowing]

（ he falls silent for a moment, considering it. admittedly, the haze of desire shrouding his thoughts makes higher critical thinking next to impossible, but — he's had a chance to put some distance between them and the scene, and if sasuke's asking after it that means the interest is there, writ plain.

cy strokes one hand along the boy's thigh, up to his hip, and then hefts him up just a little to settle him back down on his cock. the place they're joined is almost obscenely wet, slick skin and the smell of sex a heady perfume in the air. could he step out of this moment, and into the narrative they'd built — tailor-made — to each other's needs?

there's only ever one answer.

that hand lifts, cups sasuke's cheek. little changes to his facial appearance when he shifts sexes — at most there's a slight softening, but the androgyny has its own appeal. cy's not entirely sure he'd be as attracted to both forms if there were notable differences that ran beyond just the physical presentation of genitalia. ）

No, it's not too much. But thank you, for thinking of me. For safeguarding me.

（ his thumb rubs against sasuke's bottom lip, and then: ）

But I think I'd like how the story ends better if the warlord falls in love with his slave girl. （ he tugs sasuke down to him and steals a lingering kiss. ） Maybe he can make her his queen.

[chokuto]

[He loses some concentration — that hand guiding him in a singular, slow thrust where he's seated on Cy's cock as a reminder of that union, that intimate place where his body fits together with Cy's own. It drives a soft little breath out of his throat, head turning to push into the hand on his cheek. The kiss is easy to accept, easy to return.]

I like that.

[It isn't difficult to imagine. Even with the illusion of cruelty and brutality they wove into that scene between them, there were small things belying the attachment, the seeds of that affection — a mutual sense of possession. And, too, it feels more authentic to who they are that it would end with love.]

So, in this scenario... [He rocks his hips, lacking the leverage to turn the movement into a proper slide of his cunt onto Cy's cock, but more of a back and forth drag, his own slick arousal shiny and wet on Cy's dark pubic hair, breasts swaying gently.] I would assume that identity as a woman. When I became pregnant with your child, everything changed between us.

[hallowing]

（ his teeth catch at his bottom lip, a breath dragged in as sasuke shifts, rolls his hips. ）

Maybe somewhere along the way you started to like it.

（ he ducks down, one hand capturing the heavy weight of one breast, lifting it to close his mouth briefly against the nipple, fingers tightening until there's a fresh glut of milk to be had. a swallow, then — ）

The pain, the torment, the humiliation, the subjugation. And once life took root in you, it changed how I treated you. At first, it was more about safeguarding my heir to your impossible power.

（ never let it be said he doesn't love that sasuke's powerful. ）

But then, I came to crave the intimacy we built between us.

[chokuto]

[His right hand slips to the back of Cy's head, carding into dark strands of hair.]

Cy.

[The man's name is said in that familiar, well-loved way — a needy I want this now tone — chin tilted and eyes imploring.]

Do we need to discuss any parameters?

[hallowing]

（ cy studies him a long moment, expression meditative as he hauls his brain back into that mindset. then — ）

May I blindfold you?

（ it'll be sasuke's genjutsu. he'll still control it — but it's not something he's ever mentioned before, as if by instinct. knowing it wouldn't necessarily be welcomed or tolerated, due to the nature of his eyes. but — he asks it gently, seriously, meeting his gaze. ）

[chokuto]

[The question is not what he was expecting Cy to say next. His own expression creases with — surprise, before it softens, hesitation hanging like a hook on his immediate instinct. It has nothing to do with the request Cy has made of him. He would agree to that, and far more, without second thought.]

Do you remember when we first began discussing pain play? I mentioned that I've had difficult experiences. But more than that — I'm not sure what my reaction will be when triggered by those memories. That's probably why you're asking to try it during genjutsu. Isn't it?

[Cy knows him well, and even without specifics, he's told the man enough information about his eyes that things can be extrapolated.]

I'll have more control there. If you're all right with the potential for the scene to... stop, or end abruptly, then I'm willing. I won't lash out at you in the illusion even if I respond negatively.

[Perhaps Cy doesn't need to be told this — but given the knowledge that Cy's mind is not just his own, it's worth the clarification to Sasuke.]

[hallowing]

（ he nods, and then cups sasuke's cheeks, thumbing at the sharply defined bones. ）

I'm not asking because I want to diminish your power, or take something away from you. It's about the trust.

（ he knows sasuke knows that — but he still wants to say it, to make it plain and clear. communication is king, here. ）

And I would never in a thousand years feel at risk of you lashing out at me. It's okay if the scene needs to end, or with whatever you need to be okay with it.

[chokuto]

[He leans into the cup of those warm palms, briefly stealing a kiss from Cy's mouth.]

I trust you more than I've trusted anyone.

[It doesn't need to be proven, but — sometimes he wants to. In this play between them, it feels good to prove himself.]

I'm interested, then. I thought about suggesting this last time... not the blindfold, but a continuation of that scene facilitated through genjutsu, where I actually am pregnant. [How far he has come in being able to speak more casually about this.] But should we keep those two things separate? What do you think?